11.9.2024
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Working on something you wanted, and actually making good progress is the pure ectasy...
This is addicting, I must not swim in the shallow sea sea of slow progress, I must challenge myself
I musn't stay comfortable, I musn't stay busy doing almost nothing, thinking I do, I am busy doing something
Well I must say, procrastinating is trully the worst, it feels good at the moment, then you think back, and regret doing nothing...
Why? why would I regret doing nothing? There's no higher being who defined my life's purpose at the begining...
What I do is of my own making, then why i dislike my own making?
I really should go to bed, Im too tired, bad thoughts flow into my mind, me too tired to make anything of them, leaving me writing nonsense like this
Why can't I be comfortable doing nothing?
Why must I make myself do things to require some effort and can be bad?
Why I am stuck doing nothing
Being comfortable turns one into nothing